Thoughts of Yesteryear
On things in which I fear,
Wanting one near,
Oh no more!....
Then it will begin again!
Sleep is washed
From eyes so red.
For who? For what?
Oh! It's just me little one,
Dreaming over living,
Or living over dreaming.

by: D.R. Beryl

Tina's Story

"At this moment I am confused. I feel stupid really. I am helping others but I can't figure out every day problems. I feel like part of my brain is missing. Where did it go? I prided myself on intelligence, on being smart. My husband is the one with the answers, and that shocks me. I procrastinate. Now I'm back to making lists. A friend asked me if I was happy. My answer was, 'With what?'" Tina has had three abortions.

Carol's Story
Carol said, "I couldn't get into the shower, couldn't get a shower. Every time I got in the shower (the bathroom was just across the hall from where the boys were napping), I would hear a baby cry. I would grab a towel and go to check on the boys. They were both sound asleep. This happened three or four times during one shower. I looked under beds, in closets, everywhere and I could never find the crying baby. I thought I was losing my mind - the torment was almost more than I could stand."

Angela's Story

Angela who has had three abortions and thinks possibly four, called and said, "I saw Satan laughing at me, he was sitting in a chair in my kitchen. I could smell him and it was horrible as he followed me back to my bedroom, my blood pressure became very high and I can't sleep - I am so scared."

The Word of God states, "Satan goes about like a roaring lion, seeking whom he can devour. Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour; Whom resist steadfast in the faith, knowing that the same afflictions are accomplished in your brethren that are in the world." (1 Peter 5:8-9)

Laura's Story

Laura said, "I've been thinking a lot lately about my abortions and it has really gotten to me. Several times I blew up at my husband and kids and they had no idea what was wrong with me. I have almost completely lost it a couple of times. I finally had to share with my husband the whole ugly story and I thought he would be angry, but he just held me until it was okay. I had been so scared, it was more than I could hope for - that he would love me still - but he did.

Today at our family reunion, the discussion came around to my constant involvement with pregnant women and those who have had an abortion. I told them my credentials, my reason for being so involved in this work, my story, I just blurted it out - including the fact that I had had three abortions. Shock set in and my sister's eyes popped. No one spoke. I got up and left the room with tears pouring down my face.

I want my kids to know but I can't tell them yet. I am so scared - how can anyone have had three abortions? I constantly recolor my hair, put on new clothes, and rearrange rooms in my house, but it doesn't help. No matter what I do, I am not happy with myself. I can't be a good wife or a good mother no matter how hard I try."

Joan's Case

Joan said, "Today was a hard day, but that's not why I'm crying. I've shoved so much garbage back - My Mother has just told me I had another one! (3rd abortion) How much of my life have I shoved back? I started out thinking it wouldn't be hard, like Carol's, because I have Jesus. I've had 3!" (She is hysterical!)

Marlene's Case

Marlene said, "I was living in D.C. in 1984 when I had my abortion, "I cannot forget. I cannot forgive myself. Even going to church does not take away the constant memories or the hatred I have for myself. The knowledge that I allowed my child to die causes constant pain."

Mother

"Enabling me to follow through faith, that when I have passed through my body and gone, I may enter at death into their joy, and abide with them in rest and peace. Until that day, I am growing in the Grace and Knowledge of my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ." -- Mother

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CHAPTER 24:

Psychological Problems
Little Ones

The dear baby faces that I have never known,
The ones I hide deep in my heart alone.
One day in heaven I know I will find them, *
The oh so little ones.
And there I shall know them,
Every one of them my own.
For they have left their seal, and signed it
Engraved on my heart deep within.
What a friend we have in Jesus,
Everything to Him in prayer
He has taken what I could not bear.
From the cross to my sins,
From my sins to the cross.

Mother

JW's Story

JW related, "The psychological problems were numerous. I bought compulsively (for more than five years). As a result of this, we lost our home and ultimately ended up filing bankruptcy. I couldn't even see a baby without seeing my dead babies first. Leonard and I couldn't even talk about the abortion without physically abusing each other. I was in the emergency room 3 times for a sprained arm and wrist, broken toe and sprained foot, and sprained and badly bruised knee. There were many other injuries that didn't require emergency treatment. We continued to abuse each other for 7 more years. My health began deteriorating rapidly. I was in the hospital 11 times for unexplained back pain. I had one kidney and bladder infection after another. I kept a yeast infection.

We then adopted a daughter and I was so proud of her. I loved this child with every ounce of my being, but she was a constant reminder of the two precious babies that should be here playing with her but were not. I lost my ability to love her, temporarily, because I hated myself for what I had allowed to happen. With so much hate in me I couldn't love.

Our martial relationship had not been the same since we were dating, we had intercourse no more than once every month, sometimes going 6-8 months at a time. In 1985 my worst problems came out, I found myself crying for 2 weeks with no end, I developed anorexia, slowly starving myself to death; I reasoned that laxatives helped empty me of the food I had eaten. They also made me sick when taken in great quantity, thus causing my weight to drop faster. I was abusing the laxatives. I was in the hospital with an ulcerated stomach and windpipe and irritable bowel syndrome. When thoughts of the abortions would creep into my conscious mind, I would do something destructive. I eventually worked up to 30-35 laxatives a day, over 200 a week. That shows how much I was really thinking about the abortions.

In September, 1985, I was placed in a Psychiatric ward at the hospital because I couldn't find what was wrong with my head. I had repressed the memories and feelings of abortion so far that I couldn't imagine they were the cause of my problems. When I was released, things weren't any better. But this time something in me wouldn't allow the memories to be suppressed any longer. Leonard and I tried to talk several times but it always ended up in a brutal fight.

The Lord has allowed me to travel a road paved with adversity for the purpose of helping to bring forth healing in others. I understand the pain of others who've had abortions when they speak of nightmares. I can't count the nights I woke up shaking, crying and in a cold sweat from the sound of the suction machine. Or the thousands of times I heard my babies crying and I hurt so bad because I couldn't reach them. If only I could hold them and silence their crying for one minute. Your body and heart ache with the love you have but when you reach out to them your arms remain empty, I know what it is to have arms that ache on the due date. As long as I live I can never forget when each of my children's birth dates would have been.

After ten years of sheer Hell, Jesus Christ became my personal Savior and set me free from the bondage I was in, and I have now forgiven myself. I no longer see my babies in pieces in a jar. I see them as whole beautiful children and sitting in the arms of Christ. * Now, if I hear my babies cry they are letting Mommy know they are in Christ's arms. That's my gift of peace from Jesus. My abortions are laid to rest in Christ's forgiving arms. The abuse in my home has ended, the anger and the guilt are gone. No resentment, no blame, no hate! God's healing is working. The peace had arrived.

I had named my children during pregnancy. Drew would have had strawberry blonde hair, a little boy. Elyse, my little brunette daughter would have brought me so much joy. I remember too well the memories that hurt. This is how I now see my children in Christ's arms. * Now, when I hear my babies cry, they are cries of peace and joy and I know they are home. Thank you Jesus for holding my babies. This is only a portion of the Hell I have gone through as the result of "Safe, Legal Abortion!"

The area that I still find difficult is telling my little girl what happened to her sister and brother. I want my child to know the truth, that I did not want to have either abortion and that Mamma was lied to. I want to be able to tell my daughter, my baby, Mamma is sorry that it happened and that I now know how very precious life is."

Replace Baby Syndrome

Karen's Story

One day we had an urgent call from a mother who read one of our brochures and hoped we could help her daughter. Her daughter, Karen, had eight abortions buried in the recess' of her mind. Karen was forced into an abortion at age 16 by this mother who would not listen to, nor help her.

Karen then started on the roller-coaster of "Replace Baby Syndrome." Pregnant again in a few months, she panicked and again had an abortion. This was repeated until eight babies were dead.

This young woman was soon under the care of a psychiatrist, but nobody made a connection between her withdrawal from life and the eight abortions. She eventually was placed in a Mental Hospital. Her mother knew about all of the abortions, and in fact strongly encouraged every one of them.

This mother had not been advised of the possible and even probable emotional damage from abortion that her daughter would suffer.

When this mother read the brochure and saw her daughters symptoms in print she knew what the problem was. But there was nothing we could do... Unless Karen seeks help from us we are powerless to do more than pray for her. Karen was so messed up mentally, emotionally, and physically that I doubt if she will ever recover.

* See Publisher's Comment at beginning of book.

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CHAPTER 25:

Character Defect?

We have come a long way from a very modest society back in the 40's to a society where Sexual Idolatry is accepted as the NORM. We have been taught via movies, TV and other media that if you want to be popular you will be sexually active with several partners and that lesbian and homosexual behavior is simply an alternate life style.

Drinking alcoholic beverages and the use of mind altering drugs along with all other vices are also accepted as normal behavior. Add to that the fact that when a person tries to get unhooked from one or more of these addictive habits, they are told that it is the result of a "character defect."

I have worked with many PAS victims who have become alcoholics and heavy drug abusers, who have been told as a part of a recovery program that they have a "character defect." This leads the man or woman to believe that it is something that is inherited and therefore he or she is helpless to change. It is simply a fact one has to learn to live with.

I have only seen major change take place in these individuals when they finally see that it is not a "character defect," but a life pattern that can be changed.

If we call the sexual idolatry -- (spouse swapping, masturbation, incest, lesbianism, homosexuality, etc.,) whichever form it is -- a character defect and not an act that one is responsible for, I believe we are shrinking our responsibility to these wounded individuals. We must let them know that these acts, are acts against God, that they are habits that can be overcome. Even rape and incest can and often do become habits that carry over into the next generation with the victim then victimizing others.

The Word of God states, "Keeping mercy for thousands, forgiving iniquity and transgression and sin, and that will by no means clear the guilty, visiting the iniquity of the fathers upon the children, and upon the children's children, unto the third and to the forth generation." (Exodus 34:7 - See also Eze.18:1ff)

Marianne's Story

Marianne is a three time PAS victim and she was convinced her bizarre drinking, drugging, and sexual dysfunctions were the result of a character defect and spoke that often. Only when she picked apart my thinking in this area and saw what I was talking about, did she find healing in the area of alcoholism, heavy drug abuse, and sexual dysfunctions by the score, by repenting and deliberately setting out to change her habits. She found that God's ways brought true happiness instead of the illusion of the real thing.

Habits are just that, HABITS, and all can be changed if we repent and make up our mind to do so. And then, make a deliberate step by step effort to see it through. God gave each of us a WILL.

I am pleased with the new Marianne, she is now a happy wife and mother, but best of all, she now accepts that she is loved by Jesus. She did not find a quick fix, but a deliberate walk, step by step with many stumbles and falls is bringing her peace.

Each of the PAS victims that we work with needs to be dealt with as a unique individual. We never insist on taking away the pacifier (no matter what it is) abruptly, it is a process. It has taken Marianne three years to get to the point where she has enough self-confidence to know that she can see any task through to completion. And, be satisfied that it will be a job well done.

Love is the necessary tool to be used for healing to be accomplished in all areas of abusive conduct. If that were easier to teach, the task would be easier to accomplish. We have been fed the lie of lust being "love" and now we must teach what the real thing is before we can get anywhere.

It is not easy to love a person who does not like themselves; A person who is strongly considering suicide can be that unlovely person who desperately needs a loving Mentor. Real love puts the interest of another before oneself and it sometimes requires that you put "Tough Love" into practice. That means that you must talk straight to a person who is heading in the wrong direction and does not know, or want to hear, what the consequences can be if they continue on in the same manner. If they get angry with you, at least they will think about what was said, and just might start to heed the advice given.

LOVE always desires what is best for the other person. LUST always desires what feels good to oneself at that moment.

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CHAPTER 26:

Professional Counselors
"Post Abortion Syndrome as it develops, really has the capacity to take over a person's life," said Dr. Terry Selby.

Dr. Jean O. Swihart, a psychiatrist at the Institute of Pennsylvania Hospital said, "Emotional distress may surface years after an abortion. Dr. Swihart compares post abortion grief to the post traumatic stress syndrome of the combat veteran. "Abortion may be the woman's vietnam," Dr. Swihart said. "Just as the Vietnam veteran came face to face with ugly human passions during war, the woman who goes through an abortion experiences these same things within herself -- she may see an abortion as the mutilation of her own body or the murder of her baby."

"I FELT LIKE A VOLCANO JUST WAITING TO ERUPT..."
"MY HEAD SEEMED LIKE A HURRICANE WITH TOO MUCH RAIN!"
UNDERSTANDING WHAT IS HAPPENING TO YOU...

Dr. Terry Selby stated that, "PAS is a series of symptoms and behaviors that occurs post abortion that ultimately results in a dysfunctional lifestyle characterized by high degrees of denial."

He says victims often deny the reality of their abortion experience and the present influence it has on their lives. It may take as many as five to ten years for the true problem to surface.

"The problem exists in the abortion field when the abortion industry and the public at large say that a woman doesn't have the right to grieve the loss of her pregnancy or developing child."

"We know very clearly that with people who have unresolved grief, in terms of, for instance, parents or spouses, that it can cause serious and significant dysfunction throughout their life time until they have an opportunity to "finish the grieving process," Selby says.

Internalized guilt and shame can produce the symptoms of just about all known emotional disturbances and mental illnesses, according to Selby.

The third issue is victimization. Selby says most of the women he has helped eventually come face to face with the abortion industry and its abuse of them. "It lied to them, it didn't adequately prepare them, it was often very cold and uncaring, it wasn't classic medicine in terms of bedside manner," Selby says. "They find themselves feeling very victimized by medicine, by the abortion industry in particular."

These women often place themselves in self-destructive situations. He relates this to the self-victimizing behavior practiced by many rape, incest and battering victims, but the catalyst in the case of the PAS victim is abortion.

"Post Abortion Syndrome as it develops, really has the capacity to take over a person's life."

In spite of the growing body of evidence supporting the existence and intensity of PAS, many abortion advocates and mental health professionals do not acknowledge the existence or seriousness of this problem.

Planned Parenthood Federation of America, for example, calls PAS on their fact sheets a "largely non-existing phenomenon," and continues to maintain that, "emotional responses to legally induced abortions are largely positive." They add that information about PAS is being circulated by "anti-family planning extremists." (Author's Note: Could it be that Planned Parenthood does not want their pockets emptied?)

Dr. Vincent Rue calls Planned Parenthood's position "irresponsible."

"How can one refer for a procedure without discussing the possible complications of that procedure?" questions Rue. "No longer can Planned Parenthood blink their eyes and hope that this problem will go away.

It's not likely that the American professional associations are going to be extremely sensitive to this," Rue says. "They're going to wait until more and more consumers demand help, and they're going to wait until more and more research is done, and then ultimately, I think they're going to have to reconsider their position. Those people that say this problem doesn't exist don't know what they are talking about in the first place."

Based on his clinical experience, Rue believes that a majority of women who have had abortions will be negatively affected by their abortion experiences one way or another. Selby foresees a national PAS crisis because of the millions of people who have gone through an abortion experience.

Monica's Story

Monica said, "I am ready to get off of the Cocaine, but I need help." We made the arrangements and took her to a local private drug rehabilitation center for an interview. Everything went well until she was told that she MUST tell her two children why she was there and that she had had an abortion. She started to cry, then got up and left. Monica said, "They don't understand, I have never told my kids those things. I am all they have, I can't tell them. They would hate me."

This is a woman who told me, "Don't give me anything of value, I will sell clothes or food to buy CRACK. Even my blood. I am grateful to you for trying to help me and I do not want to take advantage of you. She would have willingly sold her soul for any amount of Crack or Cocaine.

Monica left her two boys with her sister and went back to Florida where she could get the drugs her body craved. Jail was the result of that decision. When we found out about it, we prayed for her recovery and her release, so that she could be with her children.

God touched the judge's heart and opened up the door of the jail, he did not make drug rehabilitation a requirement for her release. She was not forced to go for help but she simply stated her case, that she could not do it on her own, and needed help. I believe she really wanted help but not at the expense of pulling the rug out from under her boys.

Was this necessary? Why could they not try to understand that telling her kids that she had an abortion and was so deep into drugs that she was unable to function was something she just could not do at that point? How could she say those things to a six year old and an eight year old, check into the program and not see them for weeks, without it causing further trauma in their lives? PAS mothers are very often over protective of their children; trying to rationalize that fact at a time such as this, just won't work. Consequently, she is still not off of the hard stuff, although she is making an effort to get off on her own.

The Grieving Process

At times it seems that your feelings are out of control, and you may even feel you are losing your mind. You hope that one day your pain will cease - but how? When? If you have some understanding of what is happening to you, you will be better equipped to cope. The confusing emotions of anger, sadness and depression are normal for Post Abortion Syndrome. Realizing that an abortion could be causing you such turmoil is the first step in your recovery.

The stages listed below are general observations and not necessarily the same for each person. You will grieve in your own way; be healed at your own pace. These stages of grief may relate to you as a Post Abortion Syndrome victim.

1) RELIEF: You may have experienced a sense of relief following your abortion. For a while you felt that your problems were over. But the "quick fix" is only temporary.

2) DENIAL and RATIONALIZATION: "It was something I had to do." "It was just a blob of tissue." "It's legal, therefore it's okay." These are commonly heard statements. Denial of the truth through such rationalization robs you of the opportunity to be healed through grieving.

3) REALIZATION and SHOCK: The understanding of what abortion really is follows, and can be overwhelming and frightening. With a sense of bewilderment you may have said, "I killed my baby!" DO NOT GO BACK INTO DENIAL. Out of something that resembled the "blackness of gross darkness" comes light and peace. Moving on to Victory with counseling is critical.

4) ANGER and DEPRESSION: The full force of the abortion has hit. You may feel guilt ridden, angry, betrayed, grief stricken or depressed. Thoughts of suicide are common and life may seem hopeless. It is common for unexplainable rage, remorse, guilt, and self-hatred to be engulfing at this point. You may suffer from insomnia, nightmares and flashbacks. Perhaps you've tried drinking, taking drugs, or indulging in casual sex hoping to fill the emptiness inside and to stop the hurting. You may regret your abortion and would give anything to undo it. Making decisions about anything could be very difficult now. You probably think and dream about your baby a lot. Although you may feel overpowered by these truths and feelings - don't be afraid. Many woman have experienced this and achieved complete healing.

5) ACCEPTANCE and SURRENDER: Admit that you are powerless and your life is unmanageable. You must come to believe that a Power greater than yourself CAN put your life and emotions back together again. For your healing to be complete you must make a decision to turn your will and life over to God, (as you understand Him right now). Talk out the symptoms you are having with an understanding counselor and determine the best way to overcome them. You will not shock her, she has heard it all many times over.

6) HOPE and SUBSTITUTION: Make a decision to put your life and your will into God's hands. Make a decision that with His help you will change your negative thinking into positive thinking. Take personal inventory and when you know you have been wrong, without delay, admit it and correct the wrong to the best of your ability. If doubts creep in, and they will, learn to turn those negative thoughts into positive actions.

Your self esteem will be restored when you go past total focus on yourself, example: Do something for a friend or relative. This is a growing process; it takes time, and you may have setbacks. Forget the failures of yesterday; concentrate only on this one day. Do not become impatient with yourself. If you cannot find a counselor that understands -- then please find a friend, or another woman who has already gone through this process to share with. At least one of every three women of child bearing years, in America today, has had one or more abortions. Do not keep it buried, it will fester and create other more serious problems. Nothing worthwhile is ever easy. Please do not quit. We love you and we understand!

You will always remember the child you never knew here on earth. The memories are enough to derange any normal mother, but with help the pain recedes, and the tears are not so frequent.

As you understand the very vulnerable emotional state you were in at the time and that the changes in your hormones and emotions as a result of your pregnancy were God given, and therefore very normal, you will begin to better understand yourself and why it happened. It has always been society's duty to protect and help the weaker members in it's midst, especially pregnant women and children.

Forgiveness

It is important that you forgive those you have hard feelings against. It is possible that he or she acted out of fear or simply thought they did what was best at the time. Very often that person is a parent who had no knowledge of "fetal" development and had been raised to believe what the medical professionals say or do.

Parents usually want what is best for their child and thoughts of this loved teenager quitting school, raising a baby (when they know all too well how much work that is), or getting married so young can be overwhelming.

Any time a decision of this magnitude is made quickly or while under stress, or duress, it is often one that you will regret for the rest of your life. That is also the case for anyone else involved in the decision.

TIME is the KEY ELEMENT - parents need time to adjust to the shock and MOST OF THE TIME they will come to their senses and tuck in the hurt feelings and get on with helping their daughter make the best of the situation. Men need time to adjust their thinking process too. Often if left alone for awhile they will do the right thing and make the right decisions. They must get past the fear and shock.

How Could SHE Do That?

Dr. Minnie Claiborne, Ph.D., Christian Clinical Psychologist: "As a church and a society we have buried our heads about what is happening.

The Lord had me encounter Eleanor Ramsey at PAIRS, because as most of society, I looked at this as something the woman did: 'How could SHE do that?'

You never look at the entire picture. We were not looking at how many people were involved in the decision making process, nor did we look at how many people were being hurt by it.

My approach changed generally.

As a Christian Psychologist I was always so thankful that I did not have to remember all of the theories that I learned when I went to school, because I counseled by the gifts of the Holy Spirit which is harder, but it is easier for me and it works, it never fails.

Basically, when someone comes to me for counseling I let them know that I pray in the Spirit, and I ask if that is OK, and most people who are hurting, say of course it is OK.

I would basically let them talk, as they talked, all I would need was a Word of Knowledge or a Word of Wisdom to show me the ROOT of the problem.

Perhaps they would talk and the Holy Spirit would ask, 'Four years old' and I would ask "what happened to you when you were four years old?" She would tell me what had happened and we would get at the root of the problem. We would basically deal with that and go through the process of getting her free from that and then she would be OK.

This worked except with the first woman I encountered who was a PAS victim and it didn't work! It scared me because GOD always worked. The Holy Spirit always worked. But that was the first person I ever counseled with that I didn't feel like I had made any progress and I didn't know why. I really didn't know why until I met the people here at PAIRS and then I went back and I remembered what happened. The Holy Spirit didn't fail. He told me everything he always does in the counseling session and it is so beautiful to see people set free.

But, she was consumed with self-hatreds, self-punishment, and overwhelming guilt. And she was using that guilt to beat herself because she thought she deserved it. She thought she did not deserve the forgiveness of Jesus. I had never encountered that in a session before and wondered what was wrong.

The Holy Spirit let me know that it's OK, she is forgiven. So I could tell her that, I told her that and she didn't buy it because the depth of her guilt was beyond anything that I had experienced as a Christian spirit filled counselor.

It was only afterwards that I found that the renewal process, the ability of the mind ever to love again, and accept the Word of God takes a lot of time.

Susan Stanford who is a psychologist who had an abortion, looks at it from both perspectives. She says, "Psychology couldn't give me any answers. It took the love and compassion of a Christian friend constantly with me, telling me, "I love you," and being there when I needed her."

That is what it is going to take, just people who love God and are willing to say, `God if you want to use me to help somebody, I am open.'

And that is what it is going to take -- that's the main ingredient and then allow yourself to be trained by people who have had experience.

The problem is more than soulish, we are a three part being, spirit, soul and body. We are not just physical, not just soulish, we are also spiritual.

When I first started campaigning for the rights of the unborn, the Lord showed me that the god Molech -- in the Old Testament who took child sacrifices -- was the spirit behind abortion.

So we are dealing with something clandestine that takes place when these women have abortions and they do not even know the spiritual act that is taking place. Other persons who feel so unforgivable are people who have been in the depth of sorcery... Could it be that unknowingly and unwittingly, somehow that same sorcery is performed during an abortion? This thing is so deep, it is like an octopus that has tentacles that are reaching into every fiber of a person's being.

By the grace of God, He is going to anoint us to help. Those of you who are victims, God is going to use your experiences. You might as well get anointed with boldness. God is going to keep on using you. God is not going to allow you to keep going through this - It takes time for Him to restore you, it takes time.

You are going to be totally free. You are going to receive and believe that you are forgiven, that you are loved, you are somebody. And God is going to use your lives. And I believe by the Grace of God that whoever cares, in whatever little way God is going to use you also.

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CHAPTER 27:

Lay Counselors

Encouragement for Lay Counselors

It does not take a degree in counseling to be able to bring comfort to hurting people even though, for PAS victims, professional counseling is sometimes necessary. It has often been very hard for these wounded women to find professional counselors who will even discuss the possibility that abortion could be the root problem.

Why is it so hard for some to believe that when a woman comes to the full realization that her baby is dead, and she allowed it to happen, that she could be having deep self-destructive problems with that knowledge?

When God called me into this work several years ago, I was just as scared as anyone else -- I don't know how to be a counselor -- I never had any training in that! Who ME?

We know that all things work together for good to them who love God, to them that are called according to His purpose (Romans 8:28). What a blessing it is to know that somehow you have been able to say or do something to help someone else, to be a tool in the healing process. Often, hurting people have told me they would be dead if I had not said or did a certain thing. I had no idea that what I said or did would do any good but I was willing to try. Lives were at stake. Willingness is the Key -- Obedience is the Opening of the Door.

Because myself and several other volunteers were willing, several hundred children are alive, including at least two sets of twins. And as many mothers and fathers were spared a lifetime of grief and regret. It was never easy, it still is not easy. It requires that you love others as much as you love yourself; it requires that you do for others what you would want them to do for you -- if you were in their spot.

Numerous times women, who had come to me determined to have an abortion, have called back or I have met them on the street, and they have told me that their babies had not been aborted after all. They have said, when you told me that you would love me even if I had an abortion and would help me then too, somehow that love was what I needed to get me through.

I had never heard the word "Empathy," I understood sympathy, but these were two different words with two different meanings. I had to learn the difference and put that knowledge to work. I had to learn to "discern" where a person is at a given time, learn not to be "taken," but to "give." Learn to Love, as I want to be loved.

The journey to healing is often a long one. When a wounded person repents and starts walking with God they must be encouraged along the way. "For who has known the mind of the Lord, that he may instruct him? But we have the mind of Christ" (I Corinthians 2:16).

The Bible is full of stories of incidents that God directed that seemed strange to those around at the time. But, they worked. They accomplished what they were supposed to do. Who can say before the fact what exactly will bring healing to a person?

Listen to whatever needs to come out, sometimes it can be pretty heavy. Sometimes just hearing that God will accept them when they turn to Him in sorrow and ask His forgiveness will bring quietness to a grieving heart. All need prayer, all need to hear about Jesus and His love and His willingness to forgive our sin. If it takes marching seven times around their Jericho for their walls to come down -- then encourage them to do it.

The burden God has given me for wounded women and their families is one that often brings me to tears. I do not apologize for the tears because tears bring the release that brings joy. I have seen many lives changed from total despair to complete victory and it is wonderful to behold. Those who sow in tears shall reap in joy. "He who continually goes forth weeping, bearing seed for sowing, shall doubtless come again with rejoicing, bringing his sheaves with him" (Psalm 126:5,6).

I received the following letter from Carol, who has recently moved East to be near her mother. I believe it is needed here as a testimony to the fact that anyone can minister to hurting people, if they will only learn to put others before themselves. I have spent over three years ministering to her and her family and am well pleased with the progress she is now making.

Dear Eleanor,

I read this letter to my Mom and I started crying. I want her to see the "other side" of me - to get to the inward me - to see what God has done for me - and He is doing for me what I cannot do for myself.

Most of all your loving me so unconditionally, made it possible for me to believe that Jesus really could love me too. I thought He could love everyone else except me - I was unlovable, unforgivable, unsaveable, a total heathen.

I love you beautiful lady. Did you know that you are my Heroine? Following is just a small part of what I wanted to write to you concerning the past several years of my life.

When I met you, you told me that all wounded people were like butterflies; that they were awaiting flight. While wounded, they are parallel to the beginning phase of the metamorphosis which is a caterpillar in a self-spun shell ... an uncolorful, unremarkable, cold, seemingly dormant, phase of it's life; the cocoon.

I marveled at your undying belief that the wounded could all be beautiful butterflies one day.

You stated that your calling in life was to assist and guide the wounded (they are numerous, magnitudes of people) until they could emerge and learn how to take flight.

In repeated cases I have watched you put forth efforts above and beyond what is considered the call of duty today. In this self-seeking, self-serving society we live in, the consideration given to lending your fellow man a helping hand seems almost nil. Most of us are too busy looking for an easier, softer way, unwilling to step outside of our daily routine to aid a fellow man who has a need.

You offered me sponsorship, taking me under your wing as a godchild who was spiritually and emotionally starved. Your philanthropy and benignity made it possible for me to appreciate, love and (greatest of all) for me to trust you!

Your availability day and night and your willingness to work through intricate details of my life with me, made it possible for me to rid myself of much of the "Stinkin Thinkin" I had. Some as a result of the sexual revolution. This was necessary for spiritual growth to affect itself in me. You never shoved anything down my throat or told me, "what I wasn't." You stayed on the positive, sometimes repeating them 1,000 times - I was thick headed, slow to absorb, slow to respond.

I spent time at Alcoholics Anonymous, a recovery treatment center, trying to sort through much garbage and learning what true acceptance really is. So many others were willing to give me input, but only if I would believe that what they said was the gospel truth. In short, they wanted to control all my thoughts and if I couldn't go along with them all, they would reject me for not doing it "their way."

You didn't do that - you allowed me to be my own person while sharing intricate details of your life for my benefit and growth. When I really leaned on you too hard, you would insist upon me regaining my independence to the best of my ability, consistently, and persistently, claiming complete independence and security for me in the future...(the butterfly emerged, you are the wind beneath my wings!)

You were my umbilical cord to the universe, and at times, you let me hang on to your apron strings like a child, but you never tied them in a knot around me.

You taught me how to be a mother to my kids, you are our Grandma Moses, (my kids pet name for you); How to stop constantly tearing myself to shreds all over again; How to love my husband the way a wife should; The amount of commitment it takes to make a marriage work; How to love your husband anyway...; To pass unconditional love on to others; Doing for others while maintaining and filling your sense of family. If it wasn't for your working with me, God only knows where I'd be and I have no doubt my marriage would never have lasted seven years.

You opened my mind enough for the Father to teach me how to do what I have to do, and to get off of the I can'ts!

I needed all of your positive reinforcements repeated to me almost daily for three years: I love you, you are OK, that is normal, you are going to make it, Jesus loves you no matter how many times you fail - for me to come to believe I could stand on my own two feet.

You allowed me to do some extraordinary things that I felt I needed to do to pay penance for my past mistakes, some you took a lot of derogatory remarks for. (Some of the people who have been raped or are victims of incest, later tell their story or share the trauma to benefit others, by doing rape crisis counseling or in some other way.) We feel somehow we must use this experience or the pain will eat us alive - all for nothing.

For me, writing, putting together the brochures with you and speaking publicly were vital to my recovery. We must have some way to positively channel our frustrations, if we expect to stay away from the drugs and booze - dedicate ourselves to a higher purpose - somehow ... this keeps our minds on something greater so we can see out of the pit - out of the ditch - some kind of glow at the end of the tunnel.

When we have been living in any type of post trauma, such as post abortion trauma, for such a long time our families are affected and can be as sick as we are. A support group can be the influence of positive assertiveness and initiative we need to make the difference between sinking or swimming.

I have now grown to the point that a separation of 1,000 miles from you, and Chris, who also had tremendous influence on my recovery and spiritual growth, is OK. I miss my godmother and godfather, but I can still feel them around me and I feel their prayers and know their hearts are with me no matter what. This also makes it possible for me to feel the Father's all encompassing love.

Often, for someone who has so much pain inside and feels like dying, if just one person will take the time to tell them, that Jesus died for them personally, because He loved them personally. He paid the full price for their sin and will wipe it out of His Book, to be remembered no more; if they will truly repent and ask His forgiveness for their sin. Christian benevolence is what Jesus asks us to share with one another, it can be the difference between life and death. Replacing total hopelessness with continuous HOPE. Praise God for your ability to see beyond ... to see me as I am today, and will continue to grow to become, while I was still in the pit of yesterday.

It took me a long time to take flight. Thank God for you ... The wind beneath my wings!

THE GREATEST BLESSING IS TO BE LOVED

NOT AS THE WORLD LOVES;
BUT AS GOD LOVED WHEN HE GAVE.

I recently learned a very valuable lesson on giving and receiving. My family has gone through some very hard times due to a series of unforseen events that started when my husband was injured in a serious accident and then my income stopped and now three young grandchildren to care for.

I believe GOD has allowed even the hard times in my life for my understanding and growth. If I had never experienced hard times, I would never have learned to ask, to give, nor to receive. God says, you have not because you ask not. "I'm asking Lord."

During an especially difficult time period in which I would have been justified to just quit working with wounded people and go out and get a paying job - (but then I could not do that because God never gave me the freedom to do so) - a wonderful thing happened in our lives.

I was at the PAIRS office one day and a very pretty young woman came in, face streaked with tears, saying, "I never accepted forgiveness from Jesus because He can't forgive me." I said, "If He cannot forgive you then He must have died in vain. And I know that is not so, He loves you no matter what you have done." I shared various things with her as I always do, I let her know that I too make many mistakes, I often fail. I cried with her and let her know that I too grieve for her children.

God did not call me to minister to those who never have any tragedies in their lives; but to minister to wounded, hurting people, hurting as she was hurting. She was a former employee of an abortion chamber and that brought on more guilt. I told her that it did not make any difference to Jesus. Sin is sin in His eyes and He paid the price for all of it.

I shared with her how the mother of our Lord must have cried as she watched her sinless son suffer the agony of his last journey on this earth. It was not pretty but both parents were there as Jesus said "IT IS FINISHED," and gave up the Ghost.

Soon this pretty young lady was weeping tears of understanding as she felt the warmth of the LOVE of such a FATHER. But, then she got up and left, tears flowing. I thought she was like so many who had the wound opened, were full to overflowing, and could handle no more for today. This is so common in this work that I really did not give it much thought.

Then she came back with a huge box, packed full of the most beautiful groceries I had ever seen. "I decided to bring you one of everything that I had two of." There was not one single thing in that box that was there because it was obviously something she just wasn't going to use. Every item reflected what she would have given to Jesus personally if He were there physically. The best of what she had, she freely gave. Love, perfect love, the love of JESUS CHRIST is what this beautiful young lady gave to me and my family.

This beautiful girl, God's creation, GAVE me a gift that I will always remember, the gift of LOVE. Even though the groceries will soon be gone, the LOVE will remain. How sad that so many never learn how to give nor to receive such love. I have been blessed!

GOD is also showing me another truth; and that is: for all of the years that I have spent helping others in trouble, often at great expense and inconvenience to myself and my family, it did not go unnoticed. The WORD says to give and it will be given unto you ... to overflowing. Now that all of our savings are gone, with nowhere else to go but to the throne, He has more than proved His faithfulness.

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CHAPTER 28:

Counseling Tips

Please Don't Throw Brickbats at the Butterflies You Meet!

Metamorphosis complete, a new creature (butterfly) dries its wings before embarking on a whole new life.

Don't you know that God sees inside that ugly brown cocoon and sees the beautiful creature inside that is anxious to be free? She must be allowed to crawl slowly as she comes forth, patiently, painstakingly, and gently unfolding her wings in this gradual process of renewing her life. She must feel the warmth of the SON as she confidently emerges, spreads her wings and takes off into full flight, this creature reborn to newness of life ...

Brickbat: 1) A broken piece of brick; 2) An insult; 3) A vicious remark.

Jesus said, "He who is without sin among you, throw the first stone" (brickbat).

When you meet a woman who has had an abortion - Don't judge her. Under the same set of circumstances you too might have failed.

Mothers, Fathers, Children, Grandparents: See! I will not forget you ... I have carved you in the palm of my hand. (Isaiah 49:15) Everyone of us need a touch from the Master's Hand.

Restoration must first have a failure. Failure is part of life. Defeat is part of victory.

Hebrews Chapter 11: God's Hall of Reclaimed Failures: Human failure is the breeding ground for God's Hall of Faith. It is not tragic to fall, it is tragic to stay down. Jesus can and will set you free, if you ask him to. He will not force anyone to do anything against their will. Every single person alive has sinned many times, still is sinning, and will sin until death takes them out of this life. One thing is for sure - The memories last for a lifetime.

Rev. Allen Kraft, who has counseled in the area of crisis pregnancy and post abortion trauma said, "David cried, No man careth for my soul, attend unto my cry; for I am brought very low: deliver me from my persecutors; for they are stronger than I" (Psalms 142:4 & 6). This cry is being heard over, and over again, around the world, by women who have been lied to by doctors who have ignored their Hippocratic Oath, to protect and prolong life to the best of their ability and training. They had these women believing that their pregnancy was just a blob of tissue and as easily removed as a wart. Too late they realized it was a lie and they had a real baby.

God asks a question of His Prophet Ezekiel "I sought a man among them that should make up the hedge and stand in the gap before me. But I found none" (Ezekiel 22:30). Where are the doctors and Christian leaders who should be there to guide and protect these women?

It was never God's plan to have even one of these little ones deprived of their life and the love of a mother and father. Jesus said, "Suffer the little children to come unto me, and forbid them not: for of such is the Kingdom of God" (Mark 10:14).

God asks of His Prophet Jeremiah, "Is it nothing to you, all ye that pass by? Behold, and see if there is any sorrow, like unto My sorrow, which is done unto me" (Lamentations 1:12).

God has given us His warning when He said, "Whoso stoppeth his ears at the cry of the poor, he also shall cry himself, but shall not be heard." (Proverbs 21:13)

Jesus is the answer to the sorrow that follows abortion.

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CHAPTER 29:

Health and Healing

Physical Health is Very Important

As we minister to wounded women and men who are now going through a healing process in their spirit and emotions we must also address the issue of health - or lack of it. A woman or man who has tried one or more forms of self-punishment, the most common being drug and alcohol abuse, bulimia or anorexia, with usually a strong combination of these is bound to be in poor health.

Demi is only one example. She was an alcoholic and cocaine and crack addict when I first met her. As I got to know her better along with her family it became very clear that every one of them seemed to be constantly going to doctors.

If the children sniffled they were immediately taken to a doctor and she insisted on an antibiotic. The children were also getting several forms of over the counter drugs. Upset stomachs were a weekly thing, with the answer always Phenegran Suppositories. These are doctor prescribed drugs. Mom and dad also were taking these on a regular basis. After working with PAS victims for a few years I discovered that this is usual in these families.

A body that is drugged constantly is bound to be almost completely vitamin and mineral depleted. How can they possibly recover in such an unhealthy state? How can they possibly be restored to wholeness without some drastic changes in all areas of their lives.

Demi, on several occasions has conjured up severe pains, insisted on being rushed to the local hospital, and cried and screamed until she is given a pain shot - usually Demoral or other strong pain drug. This upsets the whole family and all of her friends, but it is a way to acquire the drugs her body was screaming for. Addicts will lie, steal or do whatever they must do to get the desired drug.

I went to Demi's house on several occasions and the cupboard full of drugs kept growing, it was almost unbelievable. Many prescribed by several different doctors, most over the counter drugs.

Little by little I started warning her that her children were headed for severe trouble with all of the drugs. Demi is super sensitive where her children are concerned and it required super sensitive handling to get her to see what was happening.

I started by telling her that back when penicillin was first on the market it soon became obvious that a person could soon become immune to it. If it was used often by a person who then developed pneumonia or other life threatening illness - it very easily could be that the drug would not work any more ... even to save a life.

One of her boys developed a severe case of chronic bronchitis that required that he be hospitalized. He did not respond to the antibiotics prescribed. The doctor told her that he then had to go to the strongest antibiotic now known to man.

I was very surprised that the doctor did not put together what was happening to this boy and talk to Demi about it. He recovered and now she was ready to pay attention and willing to learn more about what I had talked to her about. This boy was out of school a great deal of the time.

First thing that I did was to get her interested in reading articles on bronchitis and other respiratory diseases. We went to a health food store and asked questions and she tried a few vitamins and little by little became a believer as she started to feel some better. She was also giving them to her children.

Demi learned to use camphor rubs on her boys chest instead of the drugs she kept putting into them. She learned of the healing properties of garlic and other herbs. Demi soon was reading every book she could find on vitamins and herbs -- especially the old books she found at yard sales, etc.

Demi also became a good cook, now using more vegetables and fruits, learned to make great tasting healthy soups, used less white flour, sugar and fats.

Little by little it paid off. They very seldom go to doctors anymore because they are very seldom sick. Health does indeed depend to a large degree on what is put into the mouth.

Since a person would never put water or even oil in the gas tank of his car; Why then, are we not smart enough to know that we cannot constantly put garbage in the form of drugs and fast food into our bodies on a regular basis without its eventually causing great harm?

There are times when a doctor is not only the best answer but the only logical answer and his advise should be followed. But, parents can learn preventative health measures.

It has taken nearly four years for Demi's family to become fairly healthy. Demi now has a disabling disease that is irreversible. But if she stays on the fresh foods and vitamins and minerals she is now on she should stay in remission for an indefinite length of time.

Demi said, "What have I done to my health - my body? At twenty-five I feel like a woman of fifty. I am so tired of feeling so bad. I did not realize that I had a disease other than alcoholism. No one realized the medication I was taking for my back was magnifying my symptoms. The doctor told me I was losing my mental facilities. Somebody -- another aborted woman -- tell me I'm not going crazy!!! Tell me I am normal. Tell me this is a physical problem. I can't deal with things like I want to when I feel this way. (I finally found a doctor who diagnosed that I had Raynaud's Disease, but only after several trips to the hospital and thousands of dollars in doctor bills and medications with absolutely NO answers).

Once I was certain that it was a physical problem and not a mental problem, I began reading every book I could get my hands on that even suggested it might contain information on this syndrome. I went to the health food stores and libraries searching for books that would help. I read everything I could find on Raynaud's Disease so it would not get any worse. I know I have to read and study -- there's got to be a better way.

I know Eleanor's right about my boy. Never one time have the antibiotics cleared him up or kept him from getting worse. I can't stand to see his entire immune system made non-functional by repeated doses of antibiotics for years on end. But can I stand up to the doctors -- tell them my boy is not taking them? Will he get sicker? Will I be responsible? Do I have the strength to wait until we have tried every lesser thing first? I have to study and read more and more to believe myself that I can properly use vitamins and minerals on my son and myself."

Note: Since we have so many men, women and children on drugs, legal and illegal, I strongly encourage everyone to ask questions and find out before the fact, what complications can be caused by all medications taken -- prescription or over the counter. Also if you take a medication, check out how alcohol and other drugs such as Cocaine or marijuana (that you are taking combined with it) could react. Your life or a loved one's life just might depend on it. Call your druggist and ask for specific information.

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CHAPTER 30:

MY GOD, MY GOD, WHY HAST THOU FORSAKEN ME?
(Mark 15:34)

Never before, nor after, is it recorded that God
Turned His back on a dying man who cried out to Him.

Was it because this was HIS only begotten SON
Who had NEVER SINNED; who hung there unjustly?

Was it because He saw the indescribable agony
Of the Blessed Mother as she watched her son die?

Was it because HIS GRIEF was so great that even GOD
Had to turn away and could not bear to watch,
As His SON'S life blood oozed out of His body,
And spilled down unto the ground?

His life was ABORTED - He did not resist
This too, he experienced, was legal though unjust.

This SINLESS LAMB that was born to be SACRIFICED
In MY place, to pay for MY SIN.

THE MAGNITUDE OF THE GRIEF OF THIS MOTHER,
AND THIS FATHER, IS GREATER THAN MIND CAN COMPREHEND.

But, They knew it had to be;
HE WAS BORN TO BE SACRIFICED FOR YOU AND ME.

Every pain and emotion THEY understood.

One God, One God man, One Woman,
Taken from Man, created in God's image.

God experienced every human emotion,
From the joy of the birth of a SON,
To deepest grief as this SON died,
While His mother watched and cried.

GLORY TO THE LAMB THAT WAS SLAIN!

Eleanor Ramsey

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The Supreme Court of the United States of America; the medical professionals who kill for profit; Religious leaders and all others who in any way coerced, or refused to help her, are also guilty before God.

Hippocratic Oath - Physicians oath: Paragraph 4: I will neither give a deadly drug to anybody if asked for it, nor will I make a suggestion to this effect. Similarly I will not give to a woman an abortive remedy. In purity and holiness I will guard my life and my art.

National Right to Life News, by Leslie Bond: Abortionist Charged for Aborting Wife Against Her Will ... in one of the most gruesome abortion stories to hit the press in recent years, a Florida abortionist on April 24, 1988 allegedly handcuffed his wife, raped her, and then brutally aborted the couple's unborn child against the woman's will...

Some doctors have become executioners where once they were healers. Their hands offer human sacrifices to their gods.

Most Abortionists are OB/GYN's who deliver babies and/or destroy babies through abortion - whichever way that they can get paid for their services. I believe I would think twice (or more) before I would let a double-minded man such as this get near me if I were pregnant. Who knows what his mind set would be at a given time. Life or death? Do you believe that a human being can just switch from death to life and life to death over and over again without its affecting his thinking abilities? Perhaps he is on drugs to be able to live with himself? Think about it...!

C. Everett Koop, M.D., Surgeon General of the United States said, "We must stop the violence in our families.

If the Pro-CHOICE (Pro-ABORT) people really believe that abortion is a valid need of poor women then why do we not ever hear of an abortion clinic giving FREE abortions? Those of us who are on the side of LIFE give untold resources to back up what we believe in, money, food, clothing, take women and children into our homes, pay doctor and hospital bills, pay taxes that pay for ADC, food stamps, schools, etc., that the other side constantly screams we don't do. It seems to me that the only reason they scream so hard, is that if they can force abortions to be funded by tax dollars, by making us feel sorry for "poor women," that then the abortion industry would benefit from those dollars. Abortion is not charity, it is big business. Killing is profitable at this point in history and the abortion industry intends to do all it can to keep it that way.

Abortion clinics BANK on the knowledge that teenagers are scared when they get pregnant. And, they know how to SELL the idea of abortion being the "Answer to the problem." They know the teenager will trust the "doctors" and "nurses," so they have an easy sale.

THE LADIES CENTER OF MOBILE - A LOCAL ABORTION "CLINIC" IS
FINALLY ADMITTING THAT ABORTION IS NOT THE END
OF THE PROBLEM.

SUNDAY, JULY 19, 1987 - MOBILE PRESS REGISTER ARTICLE:
LOCAL ABORTION CENTER FORMING SUPPORT GROUP

The Ladies Center of Mobile, an abortion clinic, is forming a support group for women who have had an abortion and have unresolved feelings related to their experience.

Leading the group will be Ann M. Wilson, director of health education and counseling at the Ladies Center, and Barbara A Jones, a local therapist.

"This group will be non-judgmental and strictly confidential, allowing for a caring atmosphere in which feelings and experiences can be shared without fear," according to information from the Ladies Center.

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CHAPTER 31:

Whose Opinion Counts?

It Is Not the Critic Who Counts

It is not the critic who counts;
not the man who points out where
the strong man stumbled, or where
the doer of deeds could have done
better. The credit belongs to the man
who is actually in the arena; whose
face is marred by dust and sweat and
blood; who strives valiantly; who
errs and comes short again and again;
who knows the great enthusiasms,
the great devotions and spends himself
in a worthy cause; who at the best
knows in the end the triumphs of
high achievement; and who at the
worst, if he fails, at least fails while
daring greatly; so that his place
shall never be with those cold and
timid souls who know neither
defeat nor victory.

T. Roosevelt

Children rescued from a burning building, from a biting dog, from in front of a speeding car, any place except from the sure death in an abortion clinic would be considered an act of bravery and would make front page headlines with speeches of honor given on behalf of the rescuer.

The above poem is dedicated to those brave men and women who are willing to risk everything including going to prison, to being subjected to police brutality and having their lives threatened or even facing execution, to win this battle for the lives of our unborn children, and to rescue their mothers from the pit of despair they find themselves in. This includes those faithful volunteers who minister tirelessly to women who face crisis pregnancies - thousands of children are alive today because they cared. Their reward will be received when they stand before God one day.

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CHAPTER 32:

RUN AWAY WORLD
by Nancy Lippold


       

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CHAPTER 33:

Will God Soon Judge America?

Is AMERICA Facing Her Darkest Hour?:
Has the APATHY Gone On Too Long?:
Will God Bring JUDGMENT If We Do Not Soon Repent?

JUDGMENT! IS IT IMMINENT?

Come Now, and Let Us Reason Together:

(Revelation 17:1): ...Come, I will show you the judgment of the great whore who sits on many waters...

(Revelation 17:7): ...I will tell you the mystery of the woman...

Whore = Temptress (Religious leaders) beguiling unwary Christians with phantasy beliefs...

Isaac = Prefigurement of Christ who was to be offered as the true sacrifice (the salvific work of God)

(Revelation 17:18): And the woman whom you saw is that great city which reigns over the Kings of the earth.

(Revelation 17:15): ...The waters which you saw, where the whore sits, are peoples, multitudes, nations, and tongues...

(Isaiah 1:21-23): How the faithful city (CHURCH) has become a harlot! It was full of justice; Righteousness lodged in it, But now murderers (abortionists). Your silver has become dross, Your wine mixed with water. Your princes are rebellious, And companions of thieves; Everyone loves bribes, And follows after rewards. They do not defend the fatherless, Nor does the cause of the widow come before them.

(Revelation 18:3): For all the nations have drunk of the wine of the wrath of her fornication, the kings (RULERS and CHURCH LEADERS around the world) of the earth have committed fornication with her, and the merchants of the earth have become rich through the abundance of her luxury.

(I Timothy 6:10): For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evil, for which some have strayed from the faith in their greediness, and pierced themselves through with many sorrows.

(Revelation 18:4): Come out of her, My people, (CHRISTIANS) lest you share in her sins, and lest you receive of her plagues.

(Isaiah 3:12): As for My people, children are their oppressors, and women rule over them. (Sound like today's church in America? Men no longer head of the home, women refusing to be submissive to their husbands and children openly cursing parents, refusing to obey any authority).

(Matthew 4:17): From that time Jesus began to preach and to say, "Repent, for the kingdom of heaven is at hand."

(Revelation 14:1): Then I looked, and behold, a lamb standing on Mount Zion, and with Him one hundred and forty-four thousand, having His Father's name written on their foreheads. (verse 4) ...These were the ones who were not defiled with women, for they are virgins. These are the ones who follow the Lamb wherever He goes. These were redeemed from among men, being firstfruits to God and to the Lamb.

(Matthew 25:1-4,10): Then the kingdom of heaven shall be likened to ten virgins who took their lamps and went out to meet the bridegroom. Now five of them were wise, and five were foolish. Those who were foolish took their lamp and took no oil with them, but the wise took oil in their vessels with their lamps...and those who were ready went in with him to the wedding; and the door was shut. Foolish = Unprepared for the Kingdom?

(Revelation 14:6,7): ..."Fear God and give glory to Him, for the hour of His judgment has come; and worship Him who made heaven and earth, the sea and springs of water.

(Isaiah 1:18): Come now, and let us reason together, says the Lord, though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be white as snow; Though they are red like crimson, they shall be as wool.

The scarlet thread of redemption runs throughout history.

(Revelation 18:7): In the measure that she glorified herself and lived luxuriously, in the same measure give her torment and sorrow.

(Revelation 18:8): Therefore her plagues will come in one day, death and mourning and famine. And she will be utterly burned with fire, for strong is the Lord who judges her.

(James 2:21): Was not Abraham our father justified by works when he offered Isaac his son on the altar? Do you see that faith was working together with his works, and by works faith was made perfect.

(Hebrews 11:25): ...Was not Rahab the harlot also justified by works when she received the messengers and sent them out another way?

(Matthew 5:13): You are the salt of the earth; but if the salt loses flavor, how shall it be seasoned? It is then good for nothing but to be thrown out and trampled under foot by men.

(Matthew 5:16): Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works and glorify your Father in heaven.

(Matthew 8:13,14): Enter by the narrow gate; for wide is the gate and broad is the way that leads to destruction, and there are many who go in. Because narrow is the gate and difficult is the way which leads to life, and there are few who find it.

(Revelation 19:2): For true and righteous are His judgments, because He has judged the great harlot who corrupted the earth with her fornication; and He has avenged on her the blood of His servants shed by her.

(Matthew 5:10,11,12): Blessed are those who are persecuted for righteousness' sake, for theirs is the Kingdom of Heaven. Blessed are you when they revile and persecute you, and say all kinds of evil against you falsely for My sake. Rejoice and be exceedingly glad, for great is your reward in Heaven, for so they persecuted the prophets who were before you.

(Matthew 12:37): For by your words you will be justified, and by your words you will be condemned.

(Matthew 18:21,22): Then Peter came to Him and said, "Lord, how often shall my brother sin against me, and I forgive him? Up to seven times?" Jesus said to him, "I do not say to you, up to seven times, but up to seventy times seven."

(Matthew 10:34): Do not think that I came to bring peace. I did not come to bring peace but a sword.

THERE ARE TOO MANY HURTING PEOPLE FOR ANY ONE PERSON
OR GROUP TO EFFECTIVELY MINISTER TO;
WE MUST ALL WORK TOGETHER TO END THIS HELL.
YOU ARE ONE - BUT ONE - CAN MAKE A DIFFERENCE!

IN THE FIGHT TO SAVE LIVES
EVERY PERSON IS IMPORTANT

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